I smell the fragrance of flowers
I feel the cool breeze on my skin
I hear the laughter of those I love
I must be surrounded in bliss
The warmth of the sun soothing me
This must be a wonderful place
I open my eyes to capture this beauty
But all I see is nothing
I am not in paradise
Where my family and friends are having fun
But I am here
Deep in a dungeon
I built for myself
My hands and legs are chained up
It's dark and cold in here
Unlike the brightness and warmness
I saw in my vision
I deserve this
Being away here
Far from my family and friends
I have hurt them too much
And I am guilty of it
They need a break from me
Not temporary but permanent
They need peace and happiness
And I made this decision
Locking myself in this dungeon
So they could live a wonderful life
Some return to me
Visiting me in my hell
Wanting my love and affection
Wanting to be more than friends
I don't want to hurt them
But they don't want to leave
They have to abandon me
I have to hurt them terribly
Let them feel the pain in their heart
In order for them to leave
Don't do this to yourself
We all need you
Stop this at once
They always say these
But I would plaster a smile and say
Don't worry, I will manage
This is my choice
And I'll never change my mind
To anyone's words
They will stay at first
But eventually, leave as time passes
I will be all alone
I may yell, I may cry
Most importantly, I will smile
And tell myself
It's okay, don't worry
I can manage this