"Huh, where am I? Ah, damn my head" I said as I opened my while I got assaulted with a terrible headache.
All the things that I saw in my dream came to my head along with the memories of my life. It all got muddled together as I laid down on my bed while holding my head in pain.
After a while, the headache stopped but I still stayed in bed trying to organize my thoughts.
I am Jose Salazar, a 17-year-old boy that was in his final year of high school. I was from a Mexican family that moved to the US, I had a fairly good life with strict but loving parents. I had heart problems so my parents were more lenient with me.
I am also Fenrir gro-Alkaboz, born to chief Snaglak gro-Alkaboz and master smith Naruz gra-Alkaboz. I was the oldest of three and lived a hard but good life in a small village semi-isolated from the world. My village was attacked when I was 27 years old which later led to me being separated from my siblings and then walking into an Imperial ambush meant for the Stormcloaks.
These two memories melded together forming a new personality combining the two.
"Love are you alright?"
I regained my focus when I heard someone talking to me. I opened my eyes to see a beautiful face looking at me with concern. It was the most beautiful face I had ever seen and I just looked at her in a trance admiring her beauty. I immediately regained my focus when I saw her worry grow.
"Yes, I'm alright, just had a headache," I responded to calm her down.
"Are you sure? You looked like you were in terrible pain."
"Yes, don't worry I'm fine. A mere headache won't kill me." I responded trying to ease her worry.
"Alright then, I'll go and prepare breakfast then, I'll call when it's ready." She said as she headed out the door to go to the kitchen.
I stared back at her as she went out, not able to believe that I just got Aela the Huntress as my wife. I was super happy from the inside but I was still a little disturbed at the fact that I had left my old family behind grieving at my death.
When I remembered this, my mood immediately plummeted and I felt sad.
'It seems this will affect me greatly, I need to sort out my thoughts.'
I got up and put on some simple clothes as I prepared to go outside for some fresh air.
"I'll be going out for some time alright hun?" I told Aela.
"Alright, don't take too long, the food is almost ready."
"Ok," I responded as I headed out the front door to the lake that wasn't too far away from the Manor.
"Goodmorning papa" I heard from behind me.
I looked back to see a cute little girl in a green dress walking towards me.
"Goodmorning Lucia, how did you sleep?"
"I slept fine, but are you alright papa? I saw you having some terrible nightmares." She asked me with concern.
"Yes, don't worry about it, now go inside and help out your mother."
"Ok papa"
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It didn't take long until I arrived at the lake behind our house. I looked at the reflection in the water as I thought about the people that I left behind and the sadness that I most defiantly caused. I already know that I died, most likely by a heart attack. Though it hurts to leave my family behind the memories that I have as Fenrir have helped lessen the impact that I would have on coming to a new world.
I have decided to come to terms with this life that I was given. I don't know by who but I am grateful for it either way. But I do know that just locking the emotions that I have will do more harm than good. That's why I didn't stop the tears that fell from my eyes into the lake, I didn't weep but cried, and let all of the emotions that I had to go away with the tears.
It was easy for me to get over these emotions as I didn't just dream my life as Fenrir, no, I experience all 27 years of my life as an orc. It's just that I became self-aware today of my other identity as Jose and my memories from that life.
Though I am happy with what I have, I am married to Aela that Huntress, the most beautiful woman in all of Tamriel. I still can't believe I am married to her. I truly do love her from my heart and all thanks to the relationship that we built as we battled side by side in ruins and the inhabitants of Tamriel. I also care for the daughters that I have.
When I thought about my daughters I sighed. I remember that thanks to me needing to gather money, materials, and anything that I needed for building the house, I pretty much neglected them and wasn't there for them as a father. Even if I have reasons, it still doesn't take away that bitter feeling that I feel.
But I have always wanted to have a family and children. So I will make sure to be the best husband that I can be and the best father I can be. My end goal in my last life was always this, now I have it and I have to give it my all. It's the only thing that I can do.
'I have a new purpose'
I smiled as I thought of that, this new family has given me a purpose, a reason to wake up and look forward to every day and I couldn't ask for anything else during my current predicament.
I turned back with a smile and weights lifted off my shoulders. Let's make the most of this life I was gifted. This new life of mine.