June 25, 4:32 pm, roof deck of Sandy and Karah's dormitory building
"Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait. You're confessing to her? When? Where the hell are you gonna confess to her?" He said in shock, surprised even
"Yeah, I am gonna confess to her. Why? What's the problem?"
"Do you remember what she said when you last confessed to her?" He reminded me, "She rejected you, right?"
"No, that wasn't even a rejection nor acceptance. She just acknowledged it and she's fine with it. And I'm gonna tell her what I really feel for her. This is my chance, you know?" I tell him
"Look, you're gonna get your heart broken again, Michael. I'm telling you."
"Oh, how were you to know that I'm gonna get my heart broken again?"
"I'm telling you, Micah! What she's gonna say is gonna break your heart! I don't want you to experience that pain, you know?" he said, trying to convince me not to confess to her.
"Well, I made a promise to her, Jay!"
"What promise?"
"I promised her that I'll wait until we're in uni and look where we are now? I'm in my 20's. I'm in the third year of my college years."
"I get that, I get that, but what if she doesn't really feel the same way about you?"
"Don't worry. I told her that she can break my heart anytime."
He grimaced, "Geez, that's...depressing." He said, sounding cool with the thing I said to him, "You do you, I guess. But I'll be glad to help you. That's good with you?" He added while walking over to the railing of the building, with a large protective covering to prevent accidents of people falling off and people committing...bad things
"Sure."
"Now, what or I don't know, where are you planning to confess to her?" He asked, looking at me while sitting down on the floor with his back against the railings, "Are you sure that you want to do this? It's a huge 50/50 chance, Michael."
"Yes, I'm sure. I'm 100% sure about confessing to her. And I don't know, I haven't made thought on it yet." I said, then sat down next to him and continued, "But I've made my mind on it. I really want her to know how I feel for her. She deserves to know." I finished
"She deserves to know, but once she said no, do you think that she really did deserve to know it?" he asked me.
"Yeah. But I'm...I can't stop thinking of her once in a while, you know? I don't even know why I do that. I guess I just like hurting myself and my heart with my thoughts." I say and laughed at my statement.
"C'mon, Micah. No need to think about that. It's normal to think about someone every day, it shows that you care for someone deeply. And that's a good thing. That's what I liked about you." He said, his words are comforting as ever.
"Really?"
"Yeah. You're the most caring person I know. It just sucks that none of your friends cared about you for three years when the pandemic happened back in 2019."
"Yeah, that sucks, but surprisingly, I'm still friends with them. We rarely talk but the connection's still there for the least."
"That's good, but, back to the topic. When are you telling her?"
"Probably this Monday or Tuesday. I don't know. I guess I'll invite her out in the next week."
"Oh...that's-that's great, I guess!" He said
"Yeah. I hope that I don't get my heart broken."
"You know what, Michael?" He said
"Yeah?"
"I'm glad you're confessing to her, you know?" he said, "It's your turn to receive what you deserve after all the heartbreaks you went through in the past. Like me, I'm glad I got Monty. You deserve a girl that will treat you right."
"I think I do, but not really." I reply
"What makes you think that?"
"Well, after all the failed relationships and unrequited feelings I've had in the past like 5 to 7 years? I've lost hope just a little bit in relationships, but to be honest with you, this is probably the most I've put my hope up for a chance of a relationship with Sandy." I said, Jay just looked at me, looking like he pities me or something, "But hey, this is a thing I need to do before someone steals her from me." I say as I smile at him.
He smiles back and responds, "Idiot. You really are an idiot, you know that? But you're a good idiot and you're stupidly doing shit like this that might get your heart broken but I'm glad you took the leap, finally." He said, laughing while patting the palm of his left hand on my shoulder.
After about 10 to 15 minutes of talking about the past and possible futures on top of the roof deck, we both stood up and walked back to Sandy and Karah's dorm. When we opened the door of the dorm, Jay and I looked surprised when we saw Mikayla there. We didn't notice her...yet that was a stupid assumption since we were up there and we can't really see who was down there.
"Hey, guys!" She said, "You both finally came back from breathing fresh air up there." she said.
"Did we take that long?" I asked as I looked at Jay
"Probably," he replied
"Anyways, anyways, anyways." Mikayla said "I-"
"Since when did you get here? I cut off Mikayla and asked her
"I hate it when you do that but I just got here 9 minutes ago." She answered me, "Also, spill it."
"What?" I say in confusion
"Spill the shit you both talked about upstairs." She said
"Alright," I say as I look around the dorm room looking for Sandy. She wasn't in the room at the moment, and I start whispering, "Look, I'm going to whisper this since the others here except for Jay knows, but I'll start confessing to Sandy sometime next week." I whispered to her,
"What?!" She replied in a tone that makes everyone in the room can hear, I shh her and sat her down on the couch while I sit down on the floor,
"But yeah, I'm gonna have to tell her what I feel." I say quietly as I can, "I can't take it anymore, you know?"
"Well, putangina, I hope your feelings get reciprocated." She said to me, in a kind of envious, or a bit of annoyed-type of way but definitely sounding supportive.
"Yeah, I hope." I say, "But there's this thing, you know?"
"What thing? Huh?"
"Well, you know the feeling of asking yourself Why Am I Like This or Should I Do It?"
"Of course!" She said
"Really?" I said, excitedly but in a quiet way
"No. How did you fall for that, Micah? Out of all the people you ask, you decided to talk to me about your feelings and shi', you know me, Mich. I only have one girlfriend, once in a fucking 2 or 3 years. I can't get myself one, but well, sure, I guess I've felt what you mean." She said sarcastically but I'm pretty sure the last sentence isn't sarcasm, "Being lonely isn't fun, you know?" She added
"Well, you just stuck with the one girl you've liked back in the 8th grade," I say, "And probably still like her 'til now." I said until Mikayla grabbed me by the arm and went inside the bathroom and locked the door behind us,
"Hey, Mich, uh, well, yes, and you do know that that girl was Karah, right?" she said, still gripping my right arm tightly
"Please let go of my arm, and I know that. That's why I said one girl."
"Well, yeah! I get that, Micah, but still, I don't want her going curious and shit. if that whole Karah Finding Out thing happened, there's a chance that she's into me as well or our friendship will still continue but it's going to be awkward or we're just friends." She said as she lets go of my arm
"Hah!, Same dillema as me, huh?" I say
"Yeah...I guess so." she says as she sits on the toilet seat that's covered, "Well, this isn't a dilemma per sé. It's just that, what if she isn't like...you know, like me?"
"You know, Snowie, you don't have to worry about that. I know that it takes too much bravery and confidence to tell one how it feels but, hey, why don't we uh, both confess to the both of them next week? Let's go out tomorrow and talk about places and things to buy to confess to the both of them," I say, putting my right hand on her shoulder, assuring her that it's going to be fine to tell her, "Don't worry, I'll guide you through it." I say, "This might not be a piece of good advice but if she did reject you, just suck it up and accept it. Or that's what I did back then when I get rejected, I don't know." I say, laughing
"Alright." She said, laughing, "I'll be there."