THIS IS NOT YOUR TYPICAL FRIENDS TO LOVERS BOOK

"Why Are We Still Friends?" "I want more than friendship." are the most commonly asked questions in most friends to lovers tropes, and every time I read those kinds of tropes, I feel something in my chest, and my heart, and it's always telling me to tell her what I actually think about her. Still, when I did tell her, I regretted every moment of it. That was the time I realized that not all secrets are worth telling.

As I said goodbye to her, I went in my car and drove home, Paramore's That's What You Get played on the radio. Oh, the fucking irony. I laugh at myself, then shouted; THAT'S WHAT I FUCKING GET FOR LETTING MY HEART WIN! I...to be honest, I never want to love again. Never. I have to move on first. I need to heal. That's what everybody needs to do when they get rejected, right? Just heal, focus on self-reflection, and love themselves before loving others. Huh, Love is a weird thing. Love is one weird phenomenon. It really is.


Chapter 12 - 12. That's What I Fucking Get