Have u ever imagine what nothingness means? a paradoxical in nature question as imagining means recreating something in ur mind, that something can't be nothing so basically it means imagining not imagining.
Seems confusing but this just means that its the limit of our brain. U can't imagine a place devoid of existence neither can you comprehend it. As imagination itself is a type of existence.
In a place of beyond concepts like this, I found myself floated endlessly, I don't know how much time has passed, whether it is eons or mere fleeting moments, Even time is a concept of non existence in this realm nothingness.
I don't know where I am or more importantly what I am? I just suddenly gained the ability to think in this place. I feel no sense of individuality as if my own thoughts were nothing but an illusion. MY body or something which can be called as 'I' is nowhere to be found, Its as if I am everywhere and nowhere at the same time. A feeling beyond the ability of Human language to describe.
What are you?
If my memories were erased, will I still remain as myself ?
If my body was exchanged, will I still remain as myself ?
If my thoughts were someone else's, will I still remain as myself?
What if my emotions were interchange with another, will I still remain as the same individual?
In the end what am I? what describes I?
My body, my thoughts, my memories and my emotions, all of them changes with time and at some point will no longer be present, I don't have control over them so how can I claim them to be me? Is the sense of individuality nothing but an illusion of arrogant human kind who gain slightly more advance brains?
....
Or am I a soul right now?
When one sheds all their mortal belongings, their true form is released, a higher spiritual form untainted by the mortal plane that's what the Hindu believe in.
Such questions ran through my supposed "mind" but again I realized how futile It was as I sensed my consciousness being faded away, my sense of individuality getting erased as if I was merging with nothingness, this realm of non existence.
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An astral body indescribable by human wordings was slowly disintegrating into the abyss of nothingness when suddenly
*Ka-chek*
the realm without space began to fissure and cracked like a fragile piece of glass.
An abyss appeared through the cracks, pouring out intense red light as if it was trying to color the realm of non existence red itself. like a rift between dimensions from which a transcendent force slowly pulled the astral body towards itself.
......
I woke up once again, bewildered since I was sure my demise was near as I felt my existence being erased but suddenly something even more absurd caught my eyes as this time I could feel something.....I could feel my body!!! my senses, my eyes!!!
My initial excitement quickly turned into horror when I saw what was in front of me. Nothing. True Nothingness. A concept so bizarre that no human being could ever comprehend or encounter it. Words couldn't describe it but what happened next...
Eyes! perhaps they were eyes or i was imagining it to hold the last shred of sanity, but that void of nothingness was staring back at me!!!
I felt such fear that I could no longer feel frightened, my mind was collapsing when suddenly I felt something touching my back.
It was then that I realized that I was moving away from those eyes.. forcefully pulled towards a black ocean???
*Plunge*
I felt myself forcibly plunge into a meta physical liquid which neither made me wet nor cool and as I further sink back, Red light started to color the edges of the realm of nothingness itself.
Something touched my back and as i continued being pulled away, a few moments later i could see what it was...Something akin to a glass shard shattered across space, with countless universes etched into it as if it was a wall that separated universes itself.... A spectacle beyond beauty.
Were mere humans ever allowed to witness such things? i thought awestruck but as i stared back at the abyss, even tho i was slowly leaving it... those dreadful eyes were still staring me beyond those countless universes from the abyss but I no longer felt fear. On the contrary, I never felt such delightful before. I felt as if I had transcended.
As I sunk deeper, the intensity of the red light increased blindingly as it teared me away from the vision of those dreadful eyes and the spectacle of countless brightly lit universes.
Finally I turned towards the source of the light and it was....beautiful, horrifyingly beautiful.
Among a dark space which expanded for infinity, its only source of light was an eye the size of a planet staring at me!!!
Red eyes with golden reptilian pupils as if it was Magma itself. I saw in those eyes...destruction of the universe, it was as if these eyes were the personification of destruction itself.