During the Suns' timeout, Rambis hardly listened to a word Fitzsimmons said.
His mind was occupied by Ah Gan's words, "You should have lived," and the long-ago uttered "You are already dead."
That curse-like phrase "You are already dead" had troubled Rambis for a long time.
He had seen psychologists, visited hypnotists, and even sought out an Indian wizard, hoping to calm his inner turmoil.
Hard to believe, he often truly thought he was dead, especially when facing the Trail Blazers, during which his performance was horribly bad, like a dead man.
He thought he was scared, but upon reflection, it didn't make sense; he wasn't afraid of Ah Gan, who was a good person off the court.
On the contrary, he somewhat admired Ah Gan; they were quite normal when they met off the court, but on the court, Rambis clearly felt abnormal.
