I declare that this is no longer my diary and more of a suicide note.
I don't feel like it's worth it to be here anymore.
Why stay when you have to find food like a dog on the streets?
Why try to survive in this mess of a society, where acceptance is nowhere to be found and violence is the only answer?
I do not regret this decision. I have no family, no friends and nothing to lose. I would probably die soon anyway, so I'd rather die to prove a point to the world.
This Saturday, I will detonate a bomb in the middle of the government building, and take as many people with me as I can.
To anyone who thinks of me as family or as a friend, or feel pity, screw you. You never cared in the first place, did you.
*****
I was alive.
Why was I alive? Had the gods given me a second chance? I wanted death, and death I didn't get. Why didn't they understand? I didn't want this. No one had ever cared about me, and no one will, especially in this crappy system. So why save me?
I opened my eyes to a blinding light. I was in a small room with a table, a computer and several devices connected to me. I scanned the room, and no one was there. In fact there doesn't seem to be any signs of life around me. The room was filled with cobwebs and none of the devices were running, except for the lighting. I tried to get up but couldn't. That's when I looked at myself. I had no body.