Living being a student been hard lately but since it was nearer and nearer to this end chapter of being a grade 12 student I'm just grateful to this following days. Most of the time after class, me and my friends been hanging around maybe in store or one of my friends house. It was fun and sometimes they say you need to learn or explore new things. As for me, I am a maybe you can call an introvert and for me I don't mind things like hanging out with friends or going out but ever since I found my circle of friends it was a new and exciting door for me to overcome.
One time in our school, we had so many events and one of it is a pageantry event in our school but 'of course' the venue will be in our municipality plaza cause our school court is not that big for the event type. So along my fellow classmates as we watch the pageant of the chosen candidates in our school it was mesmerizing to see all of them. But as soon as I watch, I saw a not familiar face that at first I just ignore it but as soon as I look at him....I was captivated not just about how he look but the way he moves as he dance along in the stage.
(Back then..)
I was with my friends hanging out in the plaza and we watch the candidates practicing for their special event. There I saw a boy teaching the kids while they dance, at first I don't mind him and I just don't say it to my friends.
(Present)
That time before they go off to stage, when they were just in back stage, I just look at the stage and I saw some boys there peeking on the people who is watching in the event. I was standing alone, as soon as I look again to the boys peeking then I saw him a hand waving on the corner of handrail. I'm not sure that time if he is waving at me or to the others in my back cause I don't look back if there some person he is waving at. For me, I don't mind it and it's seems I'm too serious especially in the crowds cause I'm too shy.
Many days passed...
Being an introvert person they say when you got interested in some person you can be a little stalker I guess. It's seems true for me, but as soon as I know your face I can stalk you even I don't know your name I can find you. I don't called it stalking but they called it so it's on our own I guess we have different preference? haha just kidding!!
So now I became a little stalker and now I found his socmed also I followed it. Unexpectedly as the minutes passed by when I check again my socmed... there I saw he followed back. I am very happy (Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious)
and I look up into his photos that he post in his socials. I don't stalk him that much hehe (stalk his all socmed).
I had a crush on him for maybe more than a month. My feelings for him kinda become more let's say 'delusional' (even I hate that word for me) as days go by. Up until now, I'm just a girl admiring him for a far, he doesn't know me, no maybe just a girl who follows him that he followed back. My one sided feeling is just here cause THIS IS A CRUSH. (it hurts when you.. "no we can't call it love cause it's just a crush"....admire some when you don't even have the right to claim him that he's only yours or even get jealous)
(The regret of stalking someone...)
One day I just normally I look up to his socmed and there I saw him having a couple pfp with a girl who I don't even know. It's true he can be more close to someone I don't know cause I'm not aware to who he is with and the persons he knows especially who he is close with. I'm ok (gwenchana) cause in the following days I been losing my interest to him.
Who am I, I'm just a girl he just know in socmed, a girl who can just admire him from afar. I know this is just infatuation cause we're JUST STRANGERS.