Fortunately, I haven't done many embarrassing things in front of outsiders in the past that would lead to ridicule, at least nothing serious enough to trouble me to this day. Although people often mocked my unrealistic fantasies about supernatural matters from childhood to adulthood, I was never particularly bothered by it.
And those believers investigating me stopped short, at least without affecting the daily lives of people connected to me. After all, going too far would truly invite "divine punishment"—which is my curse.
In private conversations with Lu Chan, he once asked me about my attitude toward such matters. I have a reflexive resistance, but in the end, I chose to let it flow. Forbidding others to investigate one's past always seemed a bit cowardly and inferior. I'm just temporarily unaccustomed to exposing myself to many people's eyes.
"This is probably the price of becoming a public figure." Lu Chan said.
