I heard a voice…
A voice I didn't wanna hear…
"Kim, you're worthless! Kim, you're hopeless!" Kim's "dad" said.
A voice I didn't want to hear from…
Multiple voices… piercing straight through me!
"Kim, you failed! You should've leave me alone!" 'Uma Micheal.' screamed out.
I looked up to see my parent standing over me, turning my head to the side for a bit. I kept on seeing my loved one "Dying" over and over and OVER AND OVER AND OVER And… over and over again… then looking toward the ground.
I looked back up at my parent, I could see that they was talking to me, rather, saying something to me… something I didn't want to hear as my body was already crumbling like a half ripped piece of paper.
I could feel my body combining with the ground, it felt as it was concreted into the ground.
"Enough about me…" Kim muttered under his breath, his eyes fill with endless darkness as he had already given up. He deafen his hearing but he could still hear his loved ones destroying him with their words.
"Worthless, Kim Mugen, we should've never given you that name, it's…"
Words, words, words, that's all I hear… I don't know how my minds is still functioning… I'm tired… I'm tired…
What's the point of all of this? What's the point of what just happen, why did that "thing" trick me with my dream, holding it out, dangling it side to side toward my eye yet I couldn't reach it nor grasp it.
I'm tired… I'm tired… I'm tired, I'm sick of this, I'm sick of seeing my loved one dying…
Ah~ my mind was already broken… from the moment since I got here…
"Ahgh… hk—" Kim squeak out.
Kim mind's have officially been broken, what used to be a sane mortal is no less then a mindless grieving man… he held out his hand to his mom but her words was poison to his ear which followed up by her head popping off of her body's.
"Just kill me… please, I don't— I don't want to stay here anymore…" Covered in blood, he closes his eyes, the harsh words coming from his loved one perished. Their eternal scream and suffering was quiet.
Kim wasn't thinking anymore, he grew tired of suffering so the only way to escape… is to put himself in eternal sleep.
{Kim, get up!} Kim eye already grew lifeless, he stared at the darkness from above.
"Ah~ a new familiar voice, I wonder how it will break me…"
{Kim get up, this isn't you!}
"A trick? Possibly… I shouldn't listen to it."
The {white text} is mad.
"Huh…"
{Kim I swear… get up!!!"
"{white text}?" Kim wanted to move, he wanted to believe this wasn't a trick but his body and his mind wouldn't listen, it had told him.
"Stay right here, where it's safe and quiet, wait until WE reach eternal sleep." Kim couldn't disagree with his body, [It] had already been broken, [It] couldn't do nothing but stay concreted to the ground…
[It] just lied there, waiting…
{Kim, What about Vas Allen, Luc Mugen and Uma Micheal?}
[It] thought to itself.
"What you mean? They're here… all of them." [It] eye's widen, "Huh- where.. where are their faces? Why is it just blank?"
{Their face is blank because they were never real in the first place…}
"No— that can't be true… I tried saving them many time!" [it] shout out, "No matter what I do, I couldn't save them, they kept on dying…"
"Every time I fail to save them, they would look at me with despair and sorrow…" [It] followed up with.
{You were trying to save "something" that never existed in the first place…}
{Be it for thousands, millions, billions or even trillions… you never once stop and think to yourself "Why not save myself?"]
[it] mouth wide open, looking at the void, talking to [it]self as [it] loved one die, sweat came beaming down, [His] body trembling.
"No… no— I shouldn't matter in this situation… I should tried to save them!"
{Even if they're fake, even if it not real?}
[It] [He] hesitated to answer, for a moment he thought up of an answer.
"Yes…" [It] said.
{Kim! Be real, if all you do is putting yourself in harm way, what about your loved one?}
"Even though they are fake…" [It] pointed at [it] friends and parents, dying over and over again, "They are still my loved one!" [It] grins deeply yet not a hint of joy or happiness behind it, just sorrow and death.
{How about the ones that really exist? Are you just going to make them wait? Are you just going to leave them?}
"What—"
{Kim stop! Stop being so d*mn stubborn! Wake up, your real friends, your parents is waiting for you! Stop cuddling up with fakes and take a step foward!}
[Kim] eye's widen up, a little sparky of light built up in his eye. After seeing his loved ones died thousands and thousands of time maybe even millions, possibly trillions. He stop taking a step foward, no… he didn't want to.
{Kim, follow my voice, ignore the fakes and keep on walking!}
"Is it even ok for me to do that? Everything is h*ll for me…"
{Kim, if you were in h*ll right now, why would you just sit and stay there, keep on walking, despite the pain, despite the hardship! Keep on walking til you reach paradise!}
For the first time in what he believe was a long time, Kim stood up. Brushing away all of the filth on him, as he inhaled in, he took a step foward!
And another and another… seeing this, the fakes stopped killing themselves, they rushed toward Kim, trying to convince him with lies…
Kim didn't hear them… he choose to not hear them and simply ignore it.
{Good, follow my voice and you will see a door, once you're there, you already know what to do.}
Kim walked and walks, his "loved" ones tried stopping him, holding him but it was all in vain, Kim simply kept on walking, with a soften smile, his eyes having little bits of hope.
His path felt long but after witnessing his loved ones died a trillions time and possibly even more, even though they are fake. he felt as if he is finally at peace, the silent walk felted like a good hike, his breathing was calm and slow, relaxed to pace.
Kim don't exactly know how much he have been walking for but he knows that it is quiet, it is peaceful even though the fakes kept of following him, bombarded him with dreams and hopes.
Kim pay no attention to them and kept on walking, finally he reached the door the {white text} was talking about.
Kim looked at the door, he carefully inspected it and reach out his hands to grab the knob. He twisted the knob, opening the door in front of him, before he walk through it, he thought to himself.
"Should I look back at them one more time?" The question didn't linger for long, he brush it away and finally walks through the door.
——-
Mugen stood aloof in front of Kim, seeing as Kim body was curled up, he look at him with disgust.
Kim curled up body finally waken, he opened his eye to see his arms wrapped up around his entire body.
Kim was now in the voided room once again, this time the room was empty with just one table in a random spot.
"You are disgusting!" Mugen said with no hesitation.
{Mugen that's wasn't nice!}
Mugen scoffed at the {white text} looking at Kim, he told him to get up.
"Argh… hold up- my body have been asleep for a long time, it won't listen to me as of right now." Kim said to Mugen, but Mugen simply grabbed Kim body with one hand and pick him up to his foot.
Kim were shocked, Mugen single handely picks him up with just one hand.
"Ah- uh- I don't know if I should be thanking you or if I should be questioning you…" Kim said.
"Don't-" before Mugen could say anything, Kim interrupted him and thank the {white text} for pulling him out of the "Night Dreamer" curse.
{Oh no, you should be thanking "Mugen" he was sooooooo worry about you, he was frightening shaking, he was biting on his nails saying, "Kim… my loved, please I need—"}
"Quit speaking nonsense, I didn't say any of those thing!" Mugen patience was running out, he was beginning to be fume, mad enough where veins began showing on his arms and faces.
{Whoops! :P}
Kim was confused seeing this, "Uh…" before he could said anything. Mugen pointed at him.
"You! Why are you so worthless? You know they were fake and yet you choose to stay?"
Kim reluctantly refuse to look at Mugen with shame, he slowly nodded his head, not making a squeak.
Mugen scratched his head, "Argh! You disgust me, you were tempted by your dreams and hopes that you were willing to suffering for it!"
"Though I did like to see you suffer, however I dont want to see you die."
Kim slowly look at Mugen body, refusing to look at his face to face.
{Kim! I think what Mugen trying saying was that, while you were trap in that curse, your friends was trap into guilt, guilty for being too late to save you!}
"Stop putting such nonsense in my mouths!" Mugen scream out, he walked toward Kim and grab his face forcing him to look at him.
He looked at Kim cowardly face and open his mouth, "Kim what is your goals?"
Kim was awe by Mugen sudden question, he could only replied with his usual answer.
"I- I don't know…" Kim said.
"What a joke!" Mugen said, he continued. "Do you want to see your friends? Do you want to see your parents? Do you want to escape this so called "fantasy" world? What is your goals?"
Kim replied with the same answer he gave out, "I don't know…"
"I don't know isn't a answer!!!" Mugen shouted out, "Are you that worthless that you can't even set up a goal for yourself? If so you are the most disgusting "thing" I have ever see!"
Kim couldn't say anything, all he could do was apologize, seeing this, Mugen told him to stop apologizing.
{Kim…}
Kim looked out at the voided room.
{As much as I want to disagree with Mugen, he is right, what is actually your goals?}
Once again, Kim said, "I don't know…" pissing Mugen off even more.
{I don't know… isn't a answer… you can't just live day by day without a goal, because you said it yourself. "If that even living at that point?"}
Kim fell to the ground, he stare at the ground thinking to himself…
{If you want to live, you got to achieve-}
"I don't know what's my goal really is but one thing for sure…" Kim muttered under his breath, the {white text} even though he don't have any ear, heard him clearly.
"I want to live along side my friends, go on adventures with them, I want my friends to meet my parents… just like that dream… that is my goal!!!"
Mugen looked at Kim with full disgust, "You really-" before he could finish what he was trying to say.
{Kim is that truly what you want?}
"I don't know for sure… but that's the start!" Kim said as he begin looking up toward the voided room.
{That great-}
"I'm so sick of getting interrupted…" Mugen said.
"Stop talking and let me speak-" before Mugen could finish his sentence, Kim felt an uneasy feeling.
{Kim it look like you're about to wake up… when you do, cherish your friends.}
Kim smile and nodded his head, he looked at Mugen and slightly bow to him, "Thank you!"
"You b*stard-" With a blink of an eye, he disappear, not letting Mugen finish what he was saying.
"I'm so sick of all of you!!!" He scream out.
{Isn't this just lovely? We got to have a nice chat with Kim and finally make him realize his goals.}
"Argh!!! And what even was his goals? Live along side his friends? What type of vague answer was that?"
{Thats better than the "I don't know" answer, ain't it?}
"The fact that his mind didn't break even a bit after repeatedly seeing his "loved one" died over and over." Mugen walked back toward the table, pulling the chair toward him, he sit on it.
{Crazy huh?}
"How much does he self loathe himself? How much hatred does he have for himself?"
{What do you mean?} Mugen could feel the {white text} already know what he was talking about.
"You're disgusting, you know that?" Mugen said with a dark expression.
{Maybe, maybe not, who want to know?}
"Even a "God" would have their mind broken after seeing their favorite creation die trillions of times as they hopelessly watches, knowing they can't do anything about it."
{That's impressive… don't you think?} Mugen could feel the {white text} looking at him with a full grin.
"No… that disgusting." Mugen lean back on his chair, "This is why human emotions are soooo disgusting!"
——-
Waking up on a random stranger bed, Kim open up his eye, his body slowly got up, sitting there, he looked around the room.
"Where am I?" He ask himself, he checked his body to see him wearing bandages, "Hmmm…"
A sudden noise was made in front of the room Kim was in, the noise startle him as he looked toward that direction.
He saw Uma Micheal dropped a plate in surprise, "Kim!" She shouted out, hesitating she froze for a second and shouted out that Kim was finally awake.
Luc Mugen came zooming down the hallway and into the room Kim was in, with no hesitation, he hugged Kim.
"Kim…" Luc Mugen called out Kim name as tears gradually flowed down his face.
"Luc…" Kim slowly reach out his hand and patted Luc Mugen, "I'm sorry…" Kim said.
Luc Mugen wiped away his tear and shake his head. "Don't be." Luc Mugen said. A sudden voice was heard by the door.
"Kim! You been asleep for six whole day." Looking toward the door, Kim see Vas Allen leaning on the door. "Even in a situation like this, he still have the need to look cool…" Kim thought to himself.
"Wait… six whole day?" Kim said, Vas Allen slowly nodded his head. Vas Allen told Kim that he got bitten by the "Night Dreamer" luckily they came right on time to save him.
Vas Allen got on his knee and apologized to Kim for not being by him, for not protecting him.
Kim told Vas Allen to get up and that he should be sorry instead, he apologized and asked Vas Allen.
"Can you tell me what happened that night?"