["Good morning my darling, ready to pick up where we left off?"]
"No"
["Time for your special surprise Su"]
"NO"
[ "Oh I'm going to enjoy this, very , very much"]
"NO!!"
I jolted awake, whispering.
"it wasn't supposed to be like this."
These... dreams -Memories- have kept me up every night, It's been a couple Months since...
[ "Oh I'm going to enjoy this, very , very much"]
...That- began. I spent my birthday pregnant for a child I'm not even sure is human. all through my pregnancy at certain regular intervals I was injected with something different from my usual Lotus Pink. They called it Dahlia. Dahlia black, acted like venom spreading all over my body, i could say it was worse than my contractions and those were bad enough.
I stopped seeing Nico after a while. Stopped seeing anyone for a while, they just slide the food under the door, i take tests every week, and now, according to my calculations i should be due this week.
I've been dreading this since the day they found out i was pregnant. All through I've been trying to give myself a miscarriage, something i never thought I'd have to do with my own children but... They- I- could end up bringing monsters into this world.
I mean, if they grow up like this it's also trauma and problems on their end too, so I'm doing us all a favor. But all my attempts at killing the twins proved futile.
I could always still hear their heartbeats pounding in my ears. And i know very well no normal child's heartbeat sounds like that. No normal child's heart beat is that loud.
Of course it may help that they're twins, but still.
Often times my veins were visible around my neck or belly in the most Uncanny way possible, Usually right after i was injected with the Dahlia. The few times i spotted Nico, he looked different. Too different. In an unearthly, Unsettling way. He looks more like a monster now.
Is that what my twins are going to be like?
Unspeaking, unfeeling monsters?
What will they do to me?
will they even care that i am their mother at all?
What will Mikado have them do to me once they have been born?
What does birthing them, make of me?
The hallucinations started. Again.
My little girls- or boys- running around this glorified prison, with- horns? or scales? or bloodlust like no man has ever seen. What will become of them? what become of me?
I have tried so hard to kill them off these past few months, to kill ME off. But Mikado wasn't having any of it. Any day I'd try, my hands would be chained to the two opposite ends of the room and a guard would be there to watch me. Day in day out.
They started feeding me better after they realized i wasn't going to be able to have the twins if I'm not well nourished.
I tried using that as my trump card, tried starving myself, but they forced the food down my throat anyway.
This morning however I just knew today was the day that my luck officially ran out. And then-
then my water broke just after I had lunch. Then the real pain started.
Ann after being wheeled into the lab, My vision, in fact my everything became foggy. i blacked out a couple times and screamed the rest. The pain always jumpstarted me away from death. as well as brought me closer to it.
The next time i woke up, it was to a cry that wasn't my own.
A baby.
My baby, but where is the second child? i couldn't think much. my mouth was mumbling something even i couldn't make out. The lab person, man, thing, brought the little girl to me. At least I think that it's a girl. my vision is- questionable.
But from what i can make out. She has big, red eyes similar to my own, her hair is scanty and black, but her face-
it- it reminds me of the sister i left behind. The one i don't even know if she still lives or not. She has that, innocent look on her face. She looks just like the younger me if i had a light tan skin tone. That- That she got from her- Her father.
" The boy, the uhhh, Other twin" The lab guy began. "He didn't make it, umbilical cord uhhh, you know"
A stray tear escaped my eyes, i mourned the death of the child i'd been trying to kill. If his sister looks this- Human, then maybe he did too. maybe they turned out to be two normal children that somehow was immune to the shit they put in me- in them.
Maybe i could have actually liked having them.
"So, Darling" The bastard Mikado started, " What would you like to name my dazzling princess?"
"She's not Yourprincess, she's not Your anything!"
"Oh darling that's right, she's our daughter"
"There is no us, there is no we, there is no our, she is my daughter and-"
"Really? The same one you've been trying to kill for the past 9 months? Don't be pathetic Su. Now tell me quickly, I'm leaving you this opportunity to name our daughter, not because i suddenly care for you romantically, but rather because i want someone of my blood to have a good name, and I for one am terrible at naming things, heck even those bastard children are better. so please, don't waste my precious time darling i-"
"Misuki"
"What?"
"Her name, is Misuki"
"Seeee? i told you you'd do good, Suki, My darling girl!" He carried her out of my hands before i could say anything.
"Her Name is Misuki dammit!" Unfortunately i was too weak to chase him down and the lab guy was pulling on my arm to give me what he called 'supplements' .
Weirdly Mikado seemed to drastically change at the sight of suki. But i probably imagined it, because the next second he asked the lab guy to hook her up to Dahlia black and some synthetic milk. right when i was loosing my consciousness.
"Suki. wait. no" Was all i could say, before i drifted of to sleep.