[Morning]
Our character wakes up.
(I still feel very tired, as if I haven't slept at all, but this was inevitable anyway, it's normal if you only sleep for 2 hours.)
Our character's mother Sarah calls out to her.
Sarah: Wake up already, it's time for school, you're going to be late.
(Ugh, how am I going to get through today? I feel so tired; I definitely need to sleep at school.)
Our character gets ready and leaves the house.
(Where's the school bus?)
****: Mom, the school bus still hasn't arrived.
Sarah: Wait a minute, it'll arrive soon.
(These are my last days at this school, I'm starting software school soon. I wonder what's in store for me?)
(Come on, come on.)
[2-3 Minutes Later]
(Finally, it's here.)
Our character gets on the bus.
(After all the planning we did, I realized something: planning and organizing life really helps. What if I organized myself today and made a plan for myself? I think it wouldn't be bad at all.)
(I'll go to school, then I'll probably go to bed right away. After school, I have to take care of my other tasks.)
(I'm still hoping Rafael Voss won't come; I want everything to be a lie. I'm in big trouble right now. Also, I couldn't check Leonardo Moretti's reply email. That guy is playing games with me. He's a real jerk.)
(I've been feeling bad lately because I don't have any friends, no social circle. The only people who care about me are my family. I even doubt whether they really love me. What matters to me isn't whether I have a social circle or whether people love me; I just want people to genuinely care about me. In this world, everyone pretends to love each other, so why is the world still in chaos? If everyone really loves each other, why is there chaos? What I'm trying to say is that people feed each other with their fake love. Fake smiles, insincere actions, these are all part of it. All I want is people who truly care about me; I don't want anything else.)
(People are really strange. When I talk about these things, I start thinking about other issues in life. For example, why do people betray their values, principles, friends and family for the sake of money and power? Is money really that important? Yes, money is important, but there is a reason for its importance. If you have money, you are comfortable and can spend peaceful moments with your friends, family and loved ones. But if you betray them for money, what is the point of having money? Yes, you can still be comfortable, but you will not have peace.)
(But what am I telling you, this will never change. All of humanity will always be like this because of some bad people, maybe a good person will come in the future and change everything, I still believe that humanity will improve one day, it will be like it used to be or were people good before, I don't know anything.)
(I find myself as a person who has no relationships in the middle of these fake relationships. For some reason, after a while, I always remained an introvert, antisocial person who could not communicate with people.)
(I have difficulty understanding myself. Why do I have difficulty doing something that others can do easily? I can't figure it out.)
(Ugh, I've been feeling really lonely and depressed since all this started. But I believe that one day everything will be over and I will solve my problems.)
(I say this, but maybe I'm doing the right thing; maybe I'm exaggerating a little. If you ask me, being an introvert in a corrupt society isn't such a bad thing, it's just that we shouldn't exaggerate it because it's human nature to have social relationships and make friends. The most important thing is to choose the right people during all these relationships.)
(I don't know if you noticed, but my thoughts are constantly changing. I don't actually know what I'm thinking. I'm telling you something here, but I'm actually explaining everything to myself. I don't even know what I'm doing.)