Holidays! I was in China, he was in NZ. I didn't miss him, cause he was talking to me on chat.
I went to his hometown. It made me doubt myself. I never thought that personality could run through blood, but the truth proved me wrong.
The city was as dickheaded as him. I felt it in the atmosphere.
Almost felt that he was there with me.
During the weeks I was away. He got into SVT. More precisely, he got into Jun first. I was happy; I could finally talk to him about something now.
Stop lying to yourself psycho
Stop lying to yourself psycho
His Discord status had this at one point and I threw him a message. He told me his bias is Minghao, and that's fair.
I also like Minghao, I told him. I told him I liked all the members. He was so illogical and I didn't get why he criticised me, like huh?
We didn't talk again for a long time. But I saw his SVT statuses and all his listening tos.
In January he went on holiday to New Plymouth, I messaged him a bit cus I liked that place.
The rest of January was quiet, I went out with some other friends and it was really normal.
I wanted to say that he didn't matter to me, and I didn't care whether he was there or not, but then Jun always reminded me in my head: Stop lying to yourself ,psycho.