Chapter 14: Fractures
The rain had stopped, but its echo remained—soaked into the pitch, the boots, the bones of the training ground.
Morning broke grey and flat. The kind of morning where even the sun seemed hesitant, peeking through clouds but never fully committing. The sky looked undecided, the way Niels sometimes felt when standing too long over a formation sheet. He sipped his coffee at the edge of the pitch, clipboard tucked under one arm, watching as the squad filed out one by one.
There was a slight buzz in the air. Not nervous, not exactly—more like anticipation layered with expectation. A tension that had grown quieter with every result. They were winning. And that came with pressure. Not the kind you shouted about—but the kind you wore, day after day, like a damp jacket that never quite dried.
Saturday was coming. A home league fixture against Woking. Mid-table. Physical. Fast on the break. The sort of team that played ugly and made you look worse. Punish a stray touch, crowd the midfield, hit you before you could blink. And Crawley, for all their momentum, had begun to show signs of strain under the spotlight. Not in results—yet—but in the edges. In body language. In the way players looked at each other a second longer than before.
"Stay focused," Niels said as the players gathered into groups. "They'll hit us hard in the first twenty minutes. Stay alert, win your battles early—don't chase flashy plays, just do the basics right."
He caught Luka smirking just behind the forwards' line. Hands on hips, chin tilted slightly up. Confident. Maybe too confident. A month ago, the kid had been all questions and raw energy. Now he walked like someone who expected the game to bend to him. Niels didn't call it out. Not yet.
Inside, the press were back. Not as many cameras this time, but the questions were longer, and the smiles more rehearsed. A reporter from the Sussex Herald asked about squad rotation. Another leaned in with a microphone and wanted to know how Niels was handling "the media circus" ahead of the FA Cup draw.
"I don't think it's a circus," Niels said, eyes steady. "But I do think the main act should still be the football."
He left it at that. Wallace gave a subtle nod from the back of the room. Short answers. No headlines. Keep the fire contained.
Afterward, in the corridor near the changing rooms, Niels bumped into Dev, loitering beside the vending machine with two water bottles in hand.
"They're saying you've got a 'philosophy' now," Dev said, amused.
"Is that what they're calling it?"
"Yeah. Y'know—game control, flexible transitions, inside forwards. All the tactical lingo. Heard it on the telly. Sounded proper serious."
Niels chuckled. "Guess I'd better start living up to the hype, then."
"Reckon you already are."
But hype had a weight to it. He could feel it pressing down on every training session, every team talk. Players began asking questions with their eyes before he even spoke. And cracks, if ignored, had a way of turning into fractures.
That afternoon's session carried a strange tension. They worked through short passing drills, moved on to defensive shape rotations, then half-field scrimmages. The rhythm was sharp. Mostly.
But Niels saw it during the second scrimmage—Luka demanding the ball more aggressively than usual. Not in itself a bad thing. But there was an edge to it now. He was calling for it in tight spaces, ignoring easier passes, shooting from poor angles. Then came the clipped words. A shake of the head when McCulloch recycled the ball wide instead of threading it through the middle.
Simons caught it, too.
"Hey!" he snapped. "We're in this together. Don't like the pass? Move better and give us a proper option."
Luka didn't argue. Just nodded once and jogged back into position. But the way his shoulders moved—tight, sharp—told Niels everything. He wasn't playing angry. But he wasn't playing free either.
After the session, Niels called him over.
"You alright?"
"Yeah, of course," Luka replied quickly, wiping his face with a towel. "Just pushing the level. Want us to be sharper."
"Good. But don't forget—leadership's not just about driving the tempo. It's also about knowing when to listen. When to trust the others."
Luka held his gaze. There was something unreadable in his expression for a beat—then it passed.
"I hear you, coach."
Niels watched him jog off. Still a teenager in so many ways. That fire he carried? It was special. But fire without control didn't warm a room—it burned it down.
Later, as the sky outside dipped into shades of soft blue and bruised grey, Niels sat alone in the video room. Woking's last three matches played on the screen. They were nothing fancy—no slick build-up or intricate patterns. But they were relentless. A 4-4-2 that shifted into a 4-2-4 when pressing high. Second-ball monsters. Direct, vertical, hungry.
He scribbled across the corner of his notes:
McCulloch drops deeper early. Dev stays tighter to Simons. Luka… needs balance.
His pen hovered.
There was still Joel to consider too. No decision made. But Niels kept finding his eyes drifting to that old photo taped in the drawer. Joel, back when football felt simple and the future looked wide open. He hadn't promised anything. Not yet. But something in Joel's expression that day had stuck with him—a quiet kind of hunger. Like a man who'd learned how to fall, and now just wanted one more chance to stand.
It wasn't just tactics anymore. It was people. Egos. Histories. Players growing faster than the system around them. A squad pulled between belief and expectation.
And Saturday kept creeping closer.
Not a final. Not on paper.
But maybe—just maybe—the kind of game where something beneath the surface finally gave.
Where fractures sealed...
Or split wide open.