Again.....again i had the same nightmare. im kneeling down in front of a gravestone and yet i cant read the name on its, looks like it was too weathered down. And right behind me is a woman with the same face as me but she has black hair, an eyepatch over her right eye, with stitches on her mouth stretching from ear to ear. she looked down at me with an expression thats both disgust and pity. " tch!" she spoke as clicked her tongue." just looking at you is pathetic, nose drooling, eyes tearstained and puffy for what....over a boy who cleary hated you from the beginning!"
i tried refute what she said, to defend myself and my feelings but i could was start crying....again
she then reached for my neck and grabbed then lifting me up and looked right at me"....your not even a crybaby hero...not in the slightest.." for a spit moment a tear fell down from her eye" your just a crybaby" then all i could hear was a loud crack noise..SNAP!!
i found myself on the floor of my room, massaging my neck still realing from my nightmare. i stand up to walk to my bathroom triping over the comic books i was reading last night. i wash my face then stare at my reflection to what felt like a eternity " God ...i look awful!" eyes puffy, red and swollen, bags under my eyes. i wash my face as i prepared my makeup for the day. knock-knock. i hear as i left my bathroom, then the door creakes open as Christy comes in through the doorway. " Cassandra you ready yet? your mom has breakfast ready at the table." i stare at her still in a daze then till i responded" yeah ill be right do--??"
she runs up to me, grabs my cheeks with both hands. looks me in the face and sighs " you had that nightmare again, didnt you cassie?" i knew i couldnt lie to her"...yeah i did." i smiled" but its okay its just a dream right, it doesnt mean anything." christy nodded still unconvinced as we left my room to head downstairs to the kitchen. but before we could sit down, a fist came down on to our heads BONK!!" Ouch.. geez who did tha..." there she was my mother smiling down us but cleary angry too.
" now what part of Breakfast is ready did you too not understand, i wonder!?" " well....i was getting cassandra when she.." " hmmmm?;" christy tries to respond as mom cuts her off. " both of you girls " she points to the dining room" are one dish duty after breakfast, am i understood!?" we both jolted up " Yes ma'am , we undersand completely!" we ran to the dining room to find mom went all out with breakfast, pancakes with berries and pecans, lots of syrup. partnered up with bacon and a pitcher of ice cold orange juice; my favorite in fact.
waiting patiently at the table was my older brother Sora on his break from college'" well its about time little sisters, thought i would die of starvation!" sora said jokingly. " yeah sorry brother , it just took longer to get ready this morning" i said as i sat down and fixed me a plate of pancakes and bacon. Sora looked at me like he knew something is wrong" Cassandra....are you okay your looking a little pale right now?" " she had that nightmare again last night" Christy answered before i had a chance to. " Again" he turned as he started to eat" guess thats why mom went all out with your favorites for breakfast this morning" he whispered. well just ignore is after its just a dream" he said taking a drink of juice. i nodded, it was just a dream after all. i shouldnt fester over it but still theres one thing thats true about it. that no matter how much i try to ignore that even in my own mind, im nothing more than a crybaby!