Side walk lights flickering, people happily leaving the school with their partners and friends. I stand alone waiting for the gate to open, as I stepped out of the building and slowly walking to be freed from this prison called school out of blue the clouds decided to give me more worries to handle. It rains, it pours as if there's no longer tomorrow. I didn't react, I just stood still and look above.
I'm tired... Why? Just let me go home safely it's already more than enough today.
I stood unfazed and kept staring above, suddenly an umbrella covered me and held my shoulder.
"Man, you're going to get sick, let share umbrella kuro."
A person with earrings suddenly approached me. His hair is dyed with yellow and seems like popular with woman around the school. To show that I'm not interested, I didn't respond and slowly removed his right hand from my shoulder. Instead of leaving me alone, he then gripped my collar and started choking me infront of many students. As he was choking me, I can feel the my vein are tightening up and it becomes harder to catch breathe. I didn't resist, in the rain instead of resisting and protecting myself I decided for once to let my hand down and let it all happen. Student started to gather and encircle us, slowly my vision becomes blurry and my body weight became heavy.
I can feel it, my body is also giving up...
"It's that senior den? Who's that guy then"
"Isn't that kuro? Lol, Go DEN KILL HIM!"
"oh that guy again? Did he actually lose it and mess up with senior den? GO KILL YOURSELF"
"Ugh... Kuro noire again? Sigh he should just kill himself"
"Lol, choke him den!"
Despite my body crumbling from being choke, despite my blurry vision, my hearing is clear as ever and I can hear all the voices mocking me, throwing harsh words.
It hurts...I didn't do anything yet why?
Den, the person who choke me throw me away in the ground and kicked me right in my face, I can feel my nose become hotter and the pain is immeasurable. To endure, I tried to stand up and clench my jaw for another round of his assault. As I stood I only expected his punch or kick, so I brace myself but I was fool. Den is already far away walking
Where is he going? Is he done? Can I go home now? Finally.
Then as he slowly turn to his right, the his mouth moved and said something. From a far I heard his voice faint.
"Beat him."
A crowd of men, including the students who bad mouthed me started throwing punch and kicks. I endured, I lay down protecting back of my head. They kept kicking me and punching me, my eyes were closed and after some seconds I opened my eyes and look for help...There woman and other students looking at me with disgust, their eyes are covered with shadow and disgust towards me and some of the are recording everything just for fun.
Pathetic... pathetic... pathetic!
I clench my jaw and stood up, while they kept hitting me, I just remained standing as my nose bleed, my eye lids are about to explode and my uniform teared up. Blood dripping from my head, as I was about to swing my hand to fight back a voice of adult cut through every noise, my right hand is already hard and is already in the air.
"SIR KURO FROM CLASS 5 IS BEATING UP STUDENT!"
...huh..?
Before I could even look behind me, all of the people who beat me up yell and acted I am the criminal behind all of these.
"Sir we give him a beating because he started harassing some woman, please forgive us."
He pointed at the girl who were earlier and recording me while being beat up, and that girl instant cried and support his claim.
"Sir.. senior den helped me...senior kuro started touching my body restlessly, he didn't stop so senior den stopped him and students started beating him for my sake!" She stated and supported the lies and cried so loud and other woman student started to comfort her and also hug her while crying.
I looked at the teacher, I thought I could explain but his expression towards me is already beyond disgust. I looked around and my eyes met their hatred gaze towards me. I felt tremendous betrayal, and pressure that I ended up falling to my feet.
I'm a human too..
Their eyes are full of despair towards me, I couldn't think and breath. So without a second thought and out of emotions I grabbed my bag and run fast as I can.
"Call the police!"
While running I looked behind and saw the people who beat me up running after me. They smiled, their faces are showing that they're entertained and wants more. I turned left and right yet they're still behind me. Rain kept pouring, It covered my eyes, it made my vision even blurry. The blood dripping from my head is already problem yet I'm using all my remaining stamina to run faster than I could after being accused and beat up. I saw a narrow alley, and without hesitation I made myself enter despite how narrow and dark it is. I covered my mouth and stopped breathing as if monsters from dungeon is trying to kill me. I didn't breath, I didn't make unnecessary movement. They run past me. After several minutes of waiting, after several minutes of enduring. I was able to escape.
There's no point going to school now, I've been accused as sex offender and now I'm wanted criminal, what a nice life I have.
I left the narrow alley and walk home, it's already pretty much dark and there are citizens avoiding and cautiously looking at me.
I can understand that much, with my ugly disgusting look, beat up appearances and dripping, dried blood. Of course they will avoid me.
Thanks to my unwavering endurance, I reached my apartment. With the body pain, I had a hard time trying to get my keys out. With every move, I can feel my muscles fiver tearing up. With every breath I feel like something is crashing my lungs. As I entered my apartment, an normal student house will be seen. A tv, couch, kitchen with foods and cooking tools. I dropped my bag and took of my uniform. I stared at myself in the mirror while Washing my face, as the blood drip from my for head there was a big wound. I covered it with clean towel to stop the bleeding, my eyes is messed up, my lips are messed.
I hate it... I hate it..! Why do I need to suffer?! I didn't do anything, I didn't hurt anybody so why!
Before I knew it, I ended up punching the mirror connected to the wall cracking it while my blood drips from it. I lift my hand and saw that my skin pilled off and realized how hard I punched the mirror.
"I'm so tired, why do I have to suffer? Do I even deserve to be in this much pain?"
At despair, I couldn't help it but to fall to my knees and grieve. I cried, and hold my chest as if something inside me about to burst. In my dark room, dark home. It felt empty and numb, it's nothing but darkness that lies within me.
In the late night, kuro cried in despair. Begging the Gods to side with him, he stood up and continuously pinching the wall making his hand injured and full of blood. With his hate and anger, the depression and the sadness. He thought he wanted to die, he thought he wanted to vanish. Again, he cried, he cried as if there's no longer a light tomorrow. His eyes narrow down into color of pure pitch darkness, empty and emotionless. In this break down, kuro realize that his humanity will always be the cause of his own demise. He gripped his hand, clenched his jaw out of anger. He wanted to fight and lash out but for some reason he couldn't. In the end he ended up laying down on the floor miserably as his hand, eyes and his whole body suffer from severe injuries, his emotions and mental health suffer alot of losses. He couldn't stand up anymore.
"I just want to be loved? Why did I deserve this? Why do I kept suffering? I only did what I think is right, I care, I love, and I always prioritize others before me yet why am I the one who's below and suffering in this abyss? Did I do something to create the Gods to hate me? Is this original sin because I was born? Or is it because my own existence is a nuisance in this universe? I'm thinking this way because of all the thing that happened to me. I'm alone, I have no one yet there are always bad things that happening to me every hour, days and weeks. I never asked to be alone and to be strong."
As he lay down flat on the floor, he's phone started to ring. He couldn't careless, he just lay down flat with no care. His will is shattered same goes with all the strength left within him. Yet in the midst of despair, a face a of a beautiful woman showed up in his thoughts, swaying her hair and said
"Kuro, breakfast is ready"
As she slowly smile. Kuro on spur of moment kuro gain a little bit of strength enough for him to stood and reach his phone. He checked why did his phone suddenly rang, because no one ever calls him and text him unless it's the webtoon his reading updated and the author post a new episode.
My eyes are blurry and I already gave up on hope, yet the person who took care of me when I was little showed up infront of me. I checked my phone and I thought to myself why would it suddenly rang, and there I saw that the webtoon I've been reading for almost 2 years not updated a new episode. It might sound weird but this webtoon is all I need to lighten my feelings from the heaviness I've been feeling. A glimpse of smile was caught in my face, without any disturbance I opened the new chapter and my facade smile disappeared as I saw the new episode.
[It is over]
[We're sorry but we will no longer continue the story of 'world of mystery']
[Discontinued]
Again, another heavy punch hit me. I thought I can breath a little better but I guess not. No matter how much it affect me, I, kuro no longer have the ability to care or to show any emotions after that. I reached my room and lay down, and I slowly close my eyes.
...I want to die.
[You've been chosen to continue my webtoon, I wish you all the Good luck.]
A voice in my head and a imagery saying I was chosen. I tried to contradict and question it yet even my mind is already tired. I just let it happen, I thought to myself that I'm just tired and that's all.
Out of the blue, I felt my body being too light. The pain and heat is rising but at the same time, I can feel something unusual. It's like I'm being sucked, I tried to open my eyes yet I couldn't. My chest started to hurt as if something was ripping inside. It hurts, and it pains me. I tried to grasp my chest, with all my strength I couldn't lift my arm, I can't feel anything. Slowly, I lost control of my breathing, Little by little I was losing breath. It hurts.
What's happening to me? MOVE! BODY MOVE!
With sheer desperation I gained nothing. There I let it happen, I died.
[You have died]
[Removing the memories of world of mystery to your experience and brain]
[World of mystery will be restart.]
[Entertain me kuro, I mean Noah Noire.]