I am actually an extrovert kind of person , but I mostly prefer to talk less in front of people's to avoid extra headache. I'm in my 2nd year of architecture department of my uni. I have a very small friend circle though and our teacher gives us this summer project all together to do in group to make a 1 storey building with a garage and garden .
Teacher : YOU ALL HAVE TO MAKE A GROUP OF 5. WE WILL MEET NEXT MONTH AFTER SUMMER HOLIDAYS . ANY QUESTIONS??
Then Rebecca stands up and says mam we have one member less.
(I'm actually shocked after what teacher says in solution to this query )
Teacher: JOIN SUZAIN IN YOUR GROUP THEN , AS SHE IS ABSENT TODAY .
OK CLASS DISMISS . ENJOY YOUR HOLIDAYS STUDENTS.
Good afternoon !!
AS the class dismissed , I packup my bag and left the class straight to the bus station . The whole from the bus station to my house I keep thinking about suzain joining our group . The thought of this make me tremble.
Past...
When I join the uni in my first year , Suzi is the girl who I was closed to , but one day I saw her talking to someone in the back of bookshelf in library and that someone whom I don't know who is , kissed her . I ran off from the library , ofcourse , I don't want to make any noises but I can't help myself and I stumble to a one of the chair in a way out . I hoped she didn't notice me .
I started to avoid her I don't know why ,I think i didn't expect what I saw in the library or I can't face her .
Then one day she came to me and bring up the topic of her having a boyfriend out of blue , first I didn't understand then I says ..
Oh! I didn't know that. (but somehow I know and I can't except this fact in front of her )
SUZAIN: I KNOW , I didn't tell you coz it's this situations that bind us into this kind of relationship, actually I helped him one time , and he confessed me his love in that very moment I don't understand how to handle the situation so I said yes , but I knew that this would not long , as I don't love him in the same way ...so
ME: ok ! Hold yourself , take a deep breaths, my heart flutters when those words came out of my mouth unexpectedly and the way she looks at me , why are you telling me this now?
SUZAIN: I broke with him yesterday , we cannot say it breakup ,coz we are not exactly in relationship, we just cleared some misunderstanding that are in b|w Us and now we are in good terms as a friend.
[ I don't know if I waited for this long to hear this from her but hearing this from her gives me such a relief as if I want to hear this from her this whole time.]
ME: Good to hear that.
After this conversation we actually never talked as she take a 2 month leave . And the reason , no body knows .I tried her no. but she changed it , I asked the teachers about the reason why she didn't come to classes but teacher shrug me off by saying it's personal information. I never had her address , as i never have been to her house and we are friends since 5 months so I never asked . I tried to ask to the reception for her address but she did not live there . Idk where she goes for 2 months and now teacher is saying join suzain in the project as if she's never gone . I'm so angry on her coz she left me ...amm , left us without giving any reasons without telling us ..these two months felts like as if I don't have any friends The one I had, left me without my knowing. I never thought that not being her by my side hurts me this much ... I don't know what kind of feeling is this , she betrayed me but still all my thoughts are filled with her.
[I feel a sudden jerk then I realise the bus is finally stopped at my house , nearby bus station I didn't realise when I reached home by thinking all those stuff about Suzi....I don't know how I'm going to face her yesterday ...but right now I need a tight feels to escape my mind from these thoughts..ahh!!