Life is boring literally I mean, if there is something for me to do, I don't know where to start it from just as this paragraph.
"Alasto" also known as "The Sunken City" was a city that had completely vanished ,not all at once but part by part .This morning the last building standing there had also vanished .The city was located on a desert and was developed about 700 years ago .The entire city had once been vanished before about 300 years ago I haven't witnessed it but According to our history books it was a tragic event .A sink used to appear here and it started to move each time the city started to vanish it was a unbelievable event ,Last year the sink was once again seen and building started to sink into them and this morning the last standing building had also had been sunk under the hot desert.
The news was all about a kid who didn't abandon his homeland, yes, a 19-year-old boy who was determined to not let go of his home stayed there in the building the night before. Everyone else started to migrate but that single kid never left. He died! as the last building standing there was his own house.
"'Believes' Are For Fools!"
Thats what I thought .Love ,Believe ,Trust are something not to be obeyed unless your knowledge can't justify them ,The kid who died wasn't worthy of any pity in fact he was to be shamed upon by my point of view .The reason we call ourselves humans is because we have the ability to think and solve problems .If he couldn't face himself to face reality he was nothing more than a fool.
I shared my point of view with my family but then I instantly regretted, everyone thought I was being foolish and that upsets me more than anything else at the time.
["Was I Wrong? Life Is To Understand And Then Take Steps In Life"]
Soon in the palm of my hand was a new smartphone, I was surprised it's not that I hadn't interacted with the internet before but interacting with such a small device was a different experience to me, since it was my own device, I stared to wonder. How do I see soo many colors on what seems like a layer of glass, how does the internet carry information?
The curiosity started to develop interest within me, I started to browse about how these things worked .For the first time I didn't feel bored researching and understanding things.
Life started to pace up for me some things improved meanwhile some started to get worse, it was a mess in short. I started to join groups and push myself into different digital gatherings. I had become an attention seeker before I was even aware of the term.
Normal group chats turned into weak focus and addiction to short videos and digital jokes called memes. During this time our financial situation was also about to crash, my father was a senior in the mails department but the dominating internet had his paths closed. People started to shift to electronic mails.
I was failing to study. I know I've mentioned that but the reason I am mentioning it again and again is because I was also being reminded this by my worries. I scored a 15 in my English practice exams, out of how many you ask? A hundred.
"Boe Toeson" a kid who joined us in the 2nd part of our high school, He bought great changes in the class not in a good sense. hooting all day long, running in the hallways, bunking classes etc.
He started to blend in and soon he was a part of the classroom, little did I know he was about to prove as trouble in my life. Boe started to become close friends with Miru and Fahs, Boe's mischiefs weren't his all alone now. They used to invite me over to be a part of their deeds but I wasn't brave or confident enough to join them, this gave Boe a chance to mock me and soon Fahs, Miru and the others were also mocking me. In the start it wasn't too obvious but the mid of our year it was quite obvious and painful.
"A group ready to mock me at all times, was now at all times slapping my back and referring to it as a back pat"
I had always considered myself close to Fahs and the others, I didn't realize that we were so close but still not connected, I had always been on their sides but for the first time I realized that I had been pushing myself to be a part of their group. In reality I never wasn't.
"Quatres? Nah they intended a position even inferior for me "
At this point in life, I felt betrayed, I wasn't fond of it but exams just don't care! I tried to prepare but my addiction with the smartphone had me always held back. As for my physical life I was again being held back as my so-called friends had gone, they weren't mine anymore.
If I could have someone vanished from the face of earth It would have been "Boe Joeson"
I started to visit out on park, it was a bit away from my house but it was a beautiful place. Luckily, I found Tayyab there, I felt nice as Tayyab was always spaced from the entire class. I thought we wouldn't talk much but soon we started talking casually. We were close in some time but not too close to disclose our word of minds.
[I was changing, how? I don't know. Maybe I became careless, I didn't really realize]
Fariya and Jkas had also received a silver pass from the orphanage. So now they used to visit me every week, I really loved the way Jkas was brooming but Fariya was a different story.
Jkas: "And you know what, they had me decide a career path."
Me: "So what path will you chose?"
Jkas: "I had chosen to be an engineer, they said I need more training and I am dedicated to doing it all!"
Me: "Quiet the ambitious one"
Jkas: "What about you big brother? You never told me what you are doing "
Me: "Me? What am I supposed to be doing?"
Jkas: "So you don't have any goals?"
Me: "Goals, hmmmmmm. I had some, I wanted to be a fireman at your age but I am not ambitions about it now. I wonder why?"
Maybe I've grown to be a materialistic person now!
What is it about these flowers? That They stay intact even after facing such harsh weathers.
Mom: "Yes they do, flowers are a great motivation to humans."
Me: "Lovely, maybe!"
Mom: "Do you know how these flowers survive in these harsh weathers; flowers survive because they aren't always rigid. In the harsh weathers they bend and bow to the ground and when everything's back to normal they rise up again."
Me: "I don't really get what you are trying to say."
Mom: "If we humans do not understand the situation around us and stay stubborn to our surroundings, we eventually end up breaking ourselves in rough times"
Me: "I never thought of it that way but I guess you're right."
Being rigid wasn't the way of the successful kings Afterall, they conquered lands and also retrieved at times. The tiny conversation had a deep impact on me, we need to let go of somethings I guess for good obviously.
I knew my classmates had now left me out but I couldn't bring myself to admitting it, But I guess it's time to finally make it clear to myself that my friends weren't friends anymore and I also bought myself to face some personal issues. I wasn't good with my family, nor was I doing any good with my goals in fact I didn't have any to be working on and not to mention I wasn't a close friend to God either.
For the first time I was deliberately ready to face my failures before the storm breaks me, ready to face my failures and move on in life. I was nothing but an unwise person in life.
I stopped talking to my classmates, it was hard to restructure my mind but in a matter of days I was getting used to it. I also started to leave my addiction with smartphones aside, I hadn't completely gotten a grip on it but at least I started to sit with them and spend some time. But not everything could be revived, the damage was done for me. I wasn't much close to my brother but my addiction to social media had it worse, the pain was constant.
It's not like I was a loner now, I used to talk with Tayyab and Rehan but over time our conversations changed. I can't explain how but there was a difference anyways I was now getting more free time and it had a new path opened up for me, I was now able to wonder!
Fariya and Jkas also used to visit me as usual but now I didn't see them as kids I had offered to the orphanage but as a family. My family used to treat them as they were of the same blood, this also helped me acknowledge Fariya's habits.
Anyways being me, I couldn't study [HAHA]. I guess that's enough talk for me being a changed person.
I had two more months before my exams would start so I went out to join a tuition, I was late but it was still better than doing nothing .it was a motivating not because I was trained now but because everyone there was as useless as me.
I worked on my studies for the next two month straight, besides studies I also started writing small topics because there didn't seem much that I could do in my free time.
Soon it was time to prove myself, yes! the exams had arrived. The exams lasted a week during the exams Boe's group kept on inviting to cheat. Well to be straight forward they wanted a hand but I was already tired of them. Bunch of idiots acting all nice as they knew I had prepared.
After the exams we were given a month off before we could then join universities. I wanted to do somethings in these holidays, like what you ask?
Well at first, I wanted to make engineering a goal for me in my life so I had to work upon it and then I would be learning to fight, Afterall Boe made me realize how weak I really was. I don't want to be someone who can be toyed around with. And at last, I wanted to visit some places and enjoy myself.
I didn't waste time and started to train as my first holiday had started. I started by joining a friend of my father he was a master engineer, I used to visit him by 10am and used to return by 4pm after that I used to visit a karate club. I also got my brother to go along with me so I could revive a bond.
Jkas also received a gold medal today in his orphanage math competition, looks like someone was progressing and so will I be!
Out of the blue Tayyab had also invited me over to a seminar, A seminar held for new salesman. It was quite irrelevant but I couldn't refuse, as the seminar started Tayyab kept on telling me about everything around us was nothing more than a dirty psychology trick. They sure were teaching these stunts for example selling a low selling item by placing it in a clean and premium presenting place among the shop that way a customer is forced into believing the quality of a low qualitied item.
Tayyab: "I want to master this magic."
Me: "You want to be a salesman after."
Tayyab: "No you idiot, I want to learn psychology."
Me: "From computers to psychology? That quite a plot twist."
Tayyab: "No, but I sure do want to learn how to command people."
Me: "Your words sound creepingly surprising to me."
I mean it's surprising how soo many people exist and each and every single one of them has a unique way of living and handling issues in life.
Me: "Hey! teach me too if you learn anything related to it."
Tayyab: "Ok if you say so."
I was really achieving something in life now but fun is important too ,I thought of several different places to visit one of them being "Alasto" the city that had recently sunken below the hot sands .I also decided to visit Rehan .Tayyab also thought me some psychological tricks ,one of them was a trick to achieve love , trust and affection from the victim .The trick was to first love and have conversations with your target and then suddenly start to ignore him or here and keeping on to repeat the cycle until you have your target in the palms of your hand .
Obviously, I hadn't tried it but it was surely developing quite an interest within me and now I was desperate to target someone.