I instantly went inside the bar after I arrived. This bar is famous because lot of tycoon people are visiting here, actors and actresses that wanted to enjoy themselves away from paparazzi and other professional people who wants peaceful even in just one night. This place is hidden, just few of us knew this place. Well, my gay friend introduced me to this place and I'm kinda liking it not because of their drinks or the disco lights.. but, I am liking this place because no one will bother you and people don't care about your existence. Unlike other bars who are prone to chaos and etcetera.
"One glass of jack daniels, please." I ordered while sitting on the chair right in front of the counter. I noticed that half of the customers are already on the dance floor and I am seeing familiar famous faces but I don't care. It's already natural for me to meet them in other places especially here, well, some of them are my parents' clients and customers.
"Right away, Rico." The bartender smiled to me and he even winked at me. I just chuckled because I know that it wasn't malicious. I'm a regular here and he already knew about me. He even knew my name because I gave it to him willingly.
His other companion performed such tricks and then mixed some drinks that made me astounded. Even if I am already regular here, I'm still amazed of what they are doing. This place is my secret haven. This is my hidden place whenever I feel blue or down... especially when I am facing family issues.
The red, blue and yellow disco lights are blinking and I know that it one of the causes why customers immediately got drunk. I watched some of them are having a good time while swaying their bodies like they have no problems at all. Some of them are raising their glasses in the air, not minding that it's already splashes their suits.
"Here you go, Rico. Looks like you're facing problem again, huh? Should I guess?" The bartender immediately appeared in my front while slowly putting my glass on the counter. I just smiled a bit because he already knew me.
"Sago, you don't have to guess. You already knew it." I replied and then immediately drank the liquid in the glass. I quickly tasted the bitterness of the alcohol but I don't care about it anymore. "Geez, this isn't enough. I'll change my mind, give me ten glasses." I ordered. He just laughed because he already anticipated that it would possibly happen.
"I knew you would say that so here.." I was stopped when a huge tray with glasses in it suddenly placed on the counter. He is now laughing while watching my expression. ".. you should not control yourself, okay? You should let that out. Don't worry, I am still here in case you'll get drunk. I'll just send you to your condo again in case you'll knock out just like before." He uttered that made me nod.
Of course, he's kinda my friend now. Damian introduced him to me, my gay friend. I can trust him.
"Thank you, Sago. Tsk, I am just disappointed to my family. They still don't want me to be gay. But how can I stop this? It is not like I am wanting this, okay? But damn, they are hilarious and evil." I opened up. He shrugged his shoulders. "They were even forcing me to do things that I don't want." I added weakly.
"I can't relate to you because am not gay, you are." The fuck?
When he noticed my expression, he playfully laughed like it was so entertaining to see me reacting like this. This guy is so fucking shit!
"But you know, we cannot stop our parents for reacting like that, Rico." He fired before I could say anything. He sighed and then stared at my eyes. "I think they were really expecting a lot from you but you just came out from your shell naturally, thinking that they would accept you instantly. That's not a thing, Rico. Maybe, they were shocked because they didn't anticipate that you'll turn.. gay. Well, I don't have any grudges against gays but I think family that are close-minded cannot just accept it because you just showed it to them unexpectedly?" I don't know if his words are comforting or what but he has a point. I was too complacent those times that they would immediately accept me but it turns out.. they didn't.
I sighed, "maybe you're right, I think it's really my fault. But, I already talked about my gender preference to them but they really can't accept me. They were forcing me to do things even it's against my will but still, I am doing it for them... proving them that being me is not a hindrance to our family." I stated and then drank the glass.
"Hey, I think you should really find this out on how you can please them again. Rico, you're a Jimenez, you're famou——"
"Sago, they were the one who's famous, okay? Not me. Ever since I woke up from the reality, I am starting to hide myself from social medias to avoid being targeted by those reporters." I cut him off.
"But you cannot deny the fact that you are still their son.. or daughter?" I chuckled. This is one of his personalities. When we are in the middle of serious conversation, he always put joke so that he could lighten up the mood. Which is a good help. I think if it is not because of his flowery words sometimes? I'll get depress. If it is not because of his comforting words? I think I'll get more stress about my family.
"Sago, I am a he. I don't wear women's clothes and applying lipstick... son will do." I playfully said that made him laugh. Thankfully, his companion is doing the other drinks so that he could talk to me with this moment. Well, I just really need him. "And you know me, I don't even have men crushes, it's just that.. I am really soft. The way I move and the way I speak. I think that labels me as gay... yeah, am gay." I added.
"You told me that you don't like women, right?" He clarified, I nodded. "And you don't have men crushes at the moment, too?" Like what I did earlier, I just nodded as an answer.
"Or maybe you were just pretending? Maybe, you already have a crush and it's.. me?" I furrowed my brows because of what he said and then not until we both laughed together. Even the music is so loud, we can still hear our voices laughing out loud as well.
Sago is a handsome guy. He's taller than me, probably in his six-two I guess. He's masculine, well, that explain why he really loves to hit the gym everyday before his night shift. And he is just wearing a black sando right at this moment, probably, trying to catch attentions from women here. He has a brown eyes and natural brown buzz kind of haircut. He really has a good physique and face feature especially those clenching jaws.
"Damn you, you're not my type." He just laughed and then suddenly flexed his biceps in front of me.
"With these muscles of mine? I doubt that, Rico."
"Disgusting shit." I immediately responded and we both laughed again.
"You know, you're actually cute, Rico. You look like a woman if you just have a long hair and will wear dress. Your eyes are beautiful and your freckles really complemented your face feature. Don't you really want to transition into a transwoman, hmm?" I immediately shook my head because I don't want that topic. Lot of people alread told me about that when I was in my highschool days but knowing my family's image, I didn't take it as a compliment to be a woman. Being me is already okay.
"Hmm, looks like you're the one here who likes me, huh?" I joked around, trying to change the topic.
"Well, we can talk about that." He joked back and then we laughed again.
Minutes and minutes passed, I noticed that there's only one glass left in my tray and my mind is kinda spinning already. The music is getting louder and louder and I saw Sago being busy with other customers. I just told him that he should entertain the others as well because I can already handle myself. His words are already enough to make my night enjoyable.
Shit, I need to pee.
"Sago," I called him but I think he didn't hear me. I just sighed and then stood up from where I am sitting. I don't want to disturb him. I was shocked a bit because my knees are kinda weak now. My vision is kinda getting blurry but I can still manage. "I'll just go the comfort room." I whispered and then stepped forward.
I can see some customers that are busy with their partners, some of them are just kissing in the middle of the music and loud screams. Some of them are still dancing and drowning themselves with their drinks. I am already used to it since I always went here twice a week.
"Oh my gosh," I mumbled when I bumped into someone. It was hard like it was a damn wall. "I-I am sorry, I didn't see you. I-I just want to go to the comfort.. room." I uttered but not until I felt a hand holding my waist to balance myself. I don't have time to complain anymore because I think I am really drunk. My vision is getting more blurry because of the blinking lights!
"I'll go with you then."